I love my first cousin. She was my first kiss/love, we had a peculiar kind of relationship.
When we are kids we used to do some stuff which was seen as wrong, we were physically intimate until the age of 17, it’s been 6 years since we had last kissed… Her wedding is in a week. I love her and have always wanted to spend my life with her… it really hurts to see that she doesn’t have any feelings towards me, rather she treats me like a toy now… I have rejected more than 6 people till now just so that I can spend my life with her. I have never felt so weak till date… I feel like I have been used and throwed away, she doesn’t feel sympathy/ empathy towards me.