My life s****. I want to believe it doesn’t but it does. Soo bad. My family has good genes and are all very attractive. When I was a kid a bad habit ruined my face structure and it fucked my lower jaw and cause an overbite lol. Luckily i had braces and it fixed my overbite but my lower jaw is small. Sometimes my sister comes to me and be like “you don’t even have jawline” it became a trend these days. Well it actually makes ur face more attractive thats the truth tbh. And my nose is fat and tilted to left ofc not too much but yes a little. And my face is so asymmetrical but luckily people don’t look at me like my iPhone selfie camera does. But it still looks asymmetrical. I’m always and always self conscious and always overthink about how I look. And comes my hair. My dad forces me to keep it short and I’ve never grew out my hair until now. I thought it looks better now. Whenevrr I look at a mirror I find myself very attractive. And then someone comes out of nowhere like my sister or some random person and gives a compliment I never asked for. I want to grow it out more maybe then it looks better to people. Today I came to my uncle’s marriage and the way people gave really really bad reviews about my hair made me sit in this grooms room and missing all the fun. Well its not fun to me anymore I hate every f****** one outside the room. I did nofap. It did make me feel confident and great for a while and I even have a girlfriend who I think is way out of my league. But she loves me the best way I could be loved. I share my darkest secrets to her all the time and no one else. I took a personality test and found out I’m an ENTJ-A. I’m a born leader. Maybe that gives me a reason why I can’t mingle with everyone and always feel left out. I am confident enough to make a conversation but I can’t hold it long enough. Cause I can never match people’s energies. Well it’s the other way around. So today after I got all the reviews and been hiding in my room after some time I stood and took deep breaths and told myself I look good and lets go out. Thats when my sister comes and looks at me and says “no way you’re coming out in that hairstyle” ugh I wanted to cry so bad. My life is s*** idk I wore a cap to cover my head now. Gotta go out now at least. It kills me lol
