I don’t believe in karma. Supposedly, If someone does something bad to you the same will happen to them. Good and bad is subjective. So what’s the karmatic definition of bad? Is it spreading a rumor about someone? Should I be hit by a bus because of it? What’s makes the person being bullied so important that karma will do them justice?

What about r***? Is r***** someone bad? No consent, fear, pain, disease, pregnancy, trauma. Animals r*** all the time. Do they receive bad karma from it? R*** is natural, it’s what we did as early humans. When did karma decide it’s bad now? If someone r**** me am I supposed to hope they get raped back? Is that karma? How does that fix me? I’m still raped and damaged from it. ​

Let’s say I’m great person and only do good things for others. What happens to me then? Do only good things happen to me? Yet, so much bad s*** happens to good people. Were they really just bad and we just didn’t know it? Because I guess karma knows everything, right? How? What about newborn babies? What did they do to deserve an enlarged heart that kills them after a couple weeks in the NICU? Were they really just bad and we didn’t know it? Was it their parents? How does karma decides that a baby should die because the parents were bad?

I’m learning that this s*** is all about survival of the fittest. Only the strong will survive. F*** doing good things for people anymore for me. Humans are about the absolutely most diabolical assholes on this planet and that b******* karma theory simply keeps the weak from seeking vengeance and causing all out mass chaos. I’m not weak anymore. I’m not letting these complete and totally f****** trifling inconsiderate abusers stress me out anymore, scare me anymore, hurt me anymore, nothing. I’ve lost so much by being nice. Never once sought vengeance. Still was called mean, rude, having an attitude, vengeful, scary: I was called all these things by simply walking away anytime anyone ever did anything to me. Never once argued, or fought. Just walked away and created a boundary of silent. And I was deemed evil for it. I was on the verge of a mental breakdown. Still, no one helped me. They still abused me. They still pushed. They still called me names. I somehow was the bad person to them without ever having done anything bad to anyone.

They is NO justice for victims, NONE! They only pity the abusers and relate and reason with abusers, not victims. There’s no rehabilitation for victims. There’s no pill for victims. There’s no karma for victims. There’s everything under the sun for the abusers. They are the ones who are pampered and treated. Is this karma?

F*** your karma. I’m taking everything I can get my hands on and I do not care anymore who will be victimized by me.

F*** you all.

– A formerly “good” person who’s f****** had enough.