just like the sky I rise then I can’t fall
don’t know what happened
but I’m stuck in a reality that ain’t mine
who am I ? where am I going

young kid from douala
wanted to find love by 22
get married by 25
have kid by 27
live an happy life

but here I am
fucked up , I’m the worse I’ve ever been
done some worse things
no not some
I did things that are bad
really bad
in fact I’m just a big mess
doing b******* after b*******

who am I ? I remember that little kid who used to fear God
that little kid with faith
reading his Bible everyday
praying to God and knowing that there is only God in his life

but here I am now
just a big mess
lol I have done some things I never thought I will do
can I forgive myself?

what will I say to my future wife
that’s is I even manage to fin one lol
been a mess for so long I don’t even know if I can find love

lol f*** you j*** R*****
you hear me ?
F*** YOU

J**** R***** , what is that?
you have a dumb a** name
you are ugly
loosing your hair at 23…. f****** 23

I’m working, I make money
I am there for my family
I’m always there to help others
without thinking about something else

but here I am
unable to find love
unable to find somebody that can be there for me
unable to be happy…

what did I do to deserve that?
what ?
Am I the problem? or is my world just fucked up

lol that’s crazy you know
in fact I can’t be bothered
I can’t take it