I wish I had killed myself when I was younger and still had so much promise and life. Instead of just “hanging in there” while my life continues to go downhill, I get worse at things I used to be good at, I get sadder, and my body continues to deteriorate and no matter what I do it’s always been pointless.
It’s always been pointless but at least no one would’ve had to see how much further I could fall and how much sadder I could get. I never even dreamed I’d live past 20 and the fact that I have and only gotten so much worse makes me wish I hadn’t listened to everyone and held on.
What a joke. What a sad pathetic joke.
