I have a dream of killing my parents. i don’t want to be a murderer but it would be better if they were dead and I could just scrape together whatever money they have, so that I could start living my own life.
I keep hearing their stupid voices inside my head, telling me I’m a loser or telling me that I’m ridiculous and pathetic.
I don’t want to live with them anymore. More than once I’ve been told to just go the hell away, they don’t care about me. Not really. It’s out of obligation that they take care of me as little as they do right now.

I want to be on my own but I don’t know if I can make it. What if I don’t. What if I can’t. Then what? I just die in the gutter?
I just wish I had some support. Some guidance. Or advice. Or just a way to make money that’s not giving me a headache..