Every day I feel like dying. The only reason I am here is because of my kids. The pain is unbearable. I wake up every morning and he’s the first thing on my mind and the last when I close my eyes at night. Not seeing him, not hearing from him is killing me. He still loves me and wants me, we just can’t be togther due to certain circumstances. I’d give anything to be in his arms again. I often feel like just jumping on a plane and showing up at his door like he fantasizes about, but I cannot bring myself to do it.