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I miss my husband. He was amazing. Being with him was everything and while I was his, every day was a summers day and every night the sky was hung with diamonds. He was my happiness, my breath and my heart beat. Now I feel barely alive. But I pretend because no one wants to hang around with somebody that only mourns and cries and no one wants to now that even after 6 years I still howl into my pillow at night, I still pad around the house and tell him I love him and I still beg God for a heaven can wait. I loved my husband and he truly loved me.

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My wife knew i was a recovering s** addict when we dated, when we married, and knew that it stemmed from childhood maternal molestation many years ago. She knows i will not act out, that i love her too much to do that to her, and she knows to the degree any non s** addict can how exhausting the onslaught of compulsive intrusive s***** thoughts are. But she still rejects my sincere well motivated desire for surgical or chemical castration and i cannot understand why. We have a platonic relationship so it would be zero loss to either of us.

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My wife knew i was a recovering s** addict when we dated, when we married, and knew that it stemmed from childhood maternal molestation many years ago. She knows i will not act out, that i love her too much to do that to her, and she knows to the degree any non s** addict can how exhausting the onslaught of compulsive intrusive s***** thoughts are. But she still rejects my sincere well motivated desire for surgical or chemical castration and i cannot understand why. We have a platonic relationship so it would be zero loss to either of us.

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