Thinking of leaving boyfriend. I work 36-48 hrs a week and do all the house chores clean cook and help with bills until I’m broke because he keeps falling in debt. Like all the men on reddit redpill mgtow seem to want if women I cater to my men entirely and obey and give him everything until I am nothing but ashes..and I’m just burnt out. I’m just exhausted on a literal level. Before him I was a virgin and never even held hands with a man. If he goes out with his friends I let him without complaint even if he comes in at 3 am. I give him complete d********* and control. If there is a s** position that hurts me I let him do it since he likes it. I give and do everything and keep my mouth shut and suffer in silence. I make sure to stay in decent shape (not fat), have long hair, where nice fitting clothes that emphasize my shape, plump lipglossed lips, -I try to look good. He insults me constant and says any other women even if she looks like an actual man and dresses like one looks better then me. He has bite me pushed me to the floor brushed me insulted me in every way and cheated on me but I kept being obedient and kind because isn’t that what you men like?

I’m tired now. I don’t care to date be married or do any of that anymore. I just want to focus on saving money and indulging in my hobbies (gaming, anime, horror movies).

I just wanted love. I just wanted to make a man happy and in turn be made happy and live a peaceful romantic life where we help each other equally. He said I am not realistic. This is what relationships are like. Suffering. So I’m done with them. I’m done caring about love. I can just be alone and m********* and watch anime and buy games and save money and take myself on trips.