I’m sorry I kept asking to meet up . I really didn’t know how much you didn’t want to …and even then I guess I didn’t want to believe it . Maybe we would still be talking if I had just dropped the issue .

It’s hard to accept but I’m trying. Please don’t make the burden even heavier . I’m so heartbroken and already have to deal with so much alone . I don’t have people like you do to hold my hand and wipe my a** where I can just pick and choose . I have no one and struggle alone to get through every day . I will respect how you feel and will stay away . I promise . But please don’t make the burden any heavier that I have to carry … i feel stupid I still believed there could be someone out there that actually gave a damn and you didn’t . I don’t know how to process what a cruel joke it all was . Someone wanting to see or spend time with me, that I cared for back it was a joke . I guess that makes sense why we couldn’t talk again . You don’t give closure or decency to jokes . I cared for and have given so much for you and I was treated like I wasn’t even human …at a time I was drowning . You thought it would be funny to give me an extra kick in the head while I was sinking

I don’t even know what to say . Just Please don’t hurt me anymore .