Im so tired of living here. How am I supposed to enjoy this time alive when I have parents who can’t lower their expectations. They expect me to be perfect 24/7 and I can’t handle that pressure. The moment I make a mistake, I’m looked down upon like some pathetic welp who can’t do anything right. How am I supposed to get help with my depression when I have parents who dont believe that exists or who don’t take it seriously?

How am I supposed to live here when I’m so alone? They don’t care about me. They would toss me to the curb if they were legally allowed to.

I know I need help. I WANT a therapist. But you need parental consent for something like that, so what am I supped to do. Watch in the background as my mental state becomes so messy its impossible to fix? Why don’t they help me?

Why is my dad so blind to my step-mom’s manipulation? Why doesn’t my dad see how unhappy I am? Why can’t I just end my life and get it over with?

Im not entirely sure why I can’t just kill myself. Maybe I know it won’t do anything or maybe I know it’s just pointless to try. But man, its tempting. I’m not a cutter though. It doesn’t really do much for me.

I just want to skip ahead to being 18 so I can get out of this hell hole.