The only reason I haven't commited suicide is because of the fear of leaving my mom alone... I just graduated with a master degree and though I should

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The only reason I haven’t commited suicide is because of the fear of leaving my mom alone…
I just graduated with a master degree and though I should feel proud, I feel like a failure for not being able to find a job fast enough. I’ve been dealing with depression since 2017, going to therapy, taking anti-depressants and dealing with this everyday, honestly I would have given up on life a long time ago and recently I’ve been feeling more worthless and hopeless, but everytime I have suicidal thoughts I also think about my mom, all the efforts she has done for me and the pain I would cause her. Im really tired and I really want to give up. I dont have money to go to a therapist now so I dont have anyone to talk to cause I dont feel like anyone needs to or wants to deal with my s***…

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