To: beat up at lacrosse. ME: there is something or someone in your life that you respect but shouldn’t. i was afraid of everyone once. I can only tell you what I would tell my my 7th grade self. Your dad is psychotic, own it and don’t be ashamed. There is someone trapped in you that is dying to get out. Get away from your games and toys. The malls and hangouts are not where its at. Read about scientific discoveries and sports champs and fantasies. Listen to non mainstream music. Something will resonate with you. If your s*** dad makes fun of you for reading Greek classics, f*** them all. The earlier you f*** your dad, or whoever your tormentors are, the sooner you’ll be free. You’ll be more focused on your mission than on avoiding bullies. Bullies smell your fear. Ask smart people what they think about their teacher or whatever.
You are so paralyzed that you might not be able to continue the conversation. Repeat a word that was said, and say what the world means to you. You are locked up and normal people would love to get to know you. You’re missing out big time. You’re very angry, you just don’t know it. You relate to Pete Townsend smashing guitars but try relating to Davy discovering magnesium. Youll start attracting like minds. Youre like a deer in headlights. Relax your eyelids. Bullies are tiny. If you’re going to take bruises, do it for a cause, yourself. So much to live for. You might always struggle but you’ll find friends where you don’t expect them and that will make all the b******* worth it. I am writing this as much to myself.
