I’m sitting in the car with my bestfriend right now. We stopped at a stop light that was rlly long and I couldn’t help but think abt the times I gave u a kiss at stop lights because you wanted that. I did a lot for me and you still had the nerve to go and hurt me like I was worthless. And now you want to put the effort you should’ve put in from the start. I broke the flowers and let them into the lake. I threw out the car and I let my friends have the stuff. I can’t keep letting myself take you and your sht. I know you try to mean Good but it’s not good enough. I shouldn’t be getting hurt at all. I am finally gaining my weight. I reached 115 pounds today, my goal is 125. I’ll start working out heavier at 120 pounds so I can finally be like the girls and guys you chose over me. I’ll even be better because I started from zero to gain all the weight and muscle. One day you’ll look back at me and us and realize ur mistakes from a more mature point of view and realize why I can’t keep forgiving u. I hope you’ll realize why I finally decided to cut u off. Bc u don’t know how many chances I gave, how much pain I fought to stay in ur life. I hope you work on urself and grow like I am trying to do. I’m going to continue listening tomusic w my bsf in an empty parking lot to let out all the emotions I kept in abt u for the past week. I’m getting better. You’d be proud of how much better I’ve been if you were in my life and this was abt another girl. I j wish you’d be proud right now and Realize that this is the best for me and be happy for my happiness and let it go. To keep coming into my life and bringing me things only holds me back and makes it worse and stops me from eating. For once just let it go completely for me. For once sacrifice something for me. Let me go and move on for the good. Thank you for everything tho.