i wish you knew that i didn’t give u those gifts to win you back. of course i miss you but a gift doesn’t make excuses for the things i’ve done. honestly i just wanted to make you feel special again. i wanted you to know someone is thinking of you and would go out of there way to make you smile again. i wanted you to know that that someone is me and even if you’re in my life or not you’re worth it to me and i wanna see you happy. that i remembered gaining weight is one of ur priorities, your favorite drink and snacks, flowers to remind you it’s not just the snacks and drinks but i love you. i get it. you don’t want me apart of your life anymore, you’re all moved on, there’s someone else you think is beautiful and would love to try new things with. but i wish u wanted to see how much i want you here. i wish you did appreciate my seven months wait and still not letting you go. it was all a waste to you. you really do mean the world to me and i’m trying but i can’t force you to want to be with me. i get you but i just want you to get me. but you don’t want to. one day i hope you want me again like i want you. i hope i can be worth it and the risk because i’ve never worked for someone like i do you and i could never work for someone else like i do for you. i’m not having a good day but i hope you are. please talk to me again. please text me. i just wanna hear from you. i just wanna see you, talk to you. honestly you’ve read a lot of my confessions i assume because you knew what i was writing before and if you’re reading this lily i love you a lot and i actually hope you’re happy. i miss you and hope you’d like to see a difference in me. i just wanna be apart of you, apart of your life. not in months not in years. i don’t know what the future holds for me or for you and i always hated wasting time. that’s all for right now. if you did read this i really hope u do talk to me