Looking for a homie with some Thunderbird or Night Train Express. I found out you already started moving on with someone else. it’s fine tho i’m not really doing okay but you seem to be. i’m happy for you. not really personally but you deserve happiness. if that’s what it took and me not being in your life ig everyone needs different things. i wish you could see how i been without you. i’ve been pretty sad due to my depression everyday but being without you was a lesson to be learned. ome day maybe you’ll wanna see my change. i’m sorry for some of my actions that hurt you but i always do my best to makeup for them. i miss you. i miss us but that’s not even half of it. i just miss you in my life and here. i miss how close and comfortable we were. i hope you can change ur mind about me being in ur life at least. its all stuff you’ve heard before i just miss you. u also made it clear u don’t want me to contact you ever. you said a lot of things that made me sad that day because i just needed somewhere to let things out. i still hope we’re gonna be okay. i really do. even when i found out there’s someone else i still hope. i also hope u can miss me like i miss you. i hope you think about us sometimes. i hope u wanna work us out one day even just look at my growth. i’m hurting honestly i really am. but it’s what has to be done for me to learn. and honestly i am a lot with how i’m feeling lately. i hope one day we can be good. i watch law and order most of my days since i’m not speaking to anyone and today a commercial came on with a movie i really wanna watxh with u. i love laying with you and i love your hugs. i miss talking to u. i miss being around you, i miss your presence and personality. there’s no one like you. all my days are so hard. i hope sometimes you can think of the good in me. i hope one day u look past my mistakes because i tried for a longtime and i am right now especially. i still write in my notes to you what i’d say if i could text you rigjt now bur you don’t wanna hear from me anymore. today i was thinking if i saw u in person i’d probably just cry. and then i thought if you ever let me prove myself i’d cry the moment you said okay. i miss you, goodnight. i hope she’s making you happy
