From the very moment I was born and became aware of myself, my surroundings and my place in the world — I’ve wanted to kill myself. I’ve tried several times from novice attempt as a preschooler to swallow a whole bottle of Flintstone vitamins to consuming a whole bottle of sleeping pills which resulted in a stay at the local hospital being grilled with a battery of questions all pertaining to my intent of consumption. My newest adventure is mixing prescribed benzo with alcohol. Hopefully I wont wake up tomorrow.