I want to kill myself. I want to kill myself, I want to kill myself. But I can’t. It would hurt her. If I try and fail I will end up in the hospital which is expensive. I am very poor and this is how I make my self harm decisions, lmfao. Anyway. So, I either have to do it or not. No trys. But the last time I tried, I regretted it the second after I swallowed that s*** ton of pills. Because I guess I don’t want to suicide. I just want to stop suffering. Hope springs eternal, b******. If you believe in God, please pray for me. I would really appreciate it.