i hate being an arab women. society treats me like im a fragile kid compared to guys. my own parents treat me that way and im sick of it. im not allowed to be home alone, while my guy cousin who’s two years younger than me is, as deemed by society. im forced to wear make up and scolded for not learning to cook. im made fun of and not taken seriously whenever i try to stand up for myself and what i believe in. i don’t need anyone to support me, i just want respect. im sick of this. my dad is the worst of them all. controlling and emotionally abusive. everytime i think he comes around and gets better, things just suddenly crash down. i know i shouldn’t, but sometimes i cry my eyes out over just how much a hate him. he’s given me so much, put a roof over my head, bought me gifts,but unfortunately that isn’t enough for me to respect a person, especially a parent. and every time something goes down there’s just tension through my whole family and i feel like everything’s my fault. it would make things so much easier if i just shut my mouth but i cant go against my own principles. god help me.