I get shakes when I talk to people, even online. It gets hard to breathe, and I can’t think. Real simp sounding s***, but it happens with everyone I talk to.

I also have seizures/paralysis episodes. Had one this morning, first one in maybe two months. They keep getting worse – this time I had a headache so bad I was on the floor with my cat, crying. I’ve never had a headache with them before.

There’s so much wrong with my body. Not as much as some others, and there’s things others would mind that I don’t (scars, stretch marks), but what is wrong just s****. This morning during my episode, when I looked in the mirror, I was terrified of my reflection – that I have a female body, y’know, t*** n s*** – and it was just.. shocking.

Everything is just wrong.