I failed again. This covid19 thing is f****** insane.we dont live we barely exist and i couldnt take any more pain or pressure to perform. I m also older and i ve missed my opptys for life love or happiness. I just exist to drive and deliver food; and am too scared to move from my expensive weekly room. So i tspped out and sinned. I just dont care anymore there are no feelings left. Please forgive.