even though i’m still young, it hurts knowing that i shouldn’t have biological children because of the risk of passing down severe family mental health issues to them, or because i almost certainly would suffer greatly from a depressive episode after giving birth, and i really cant go back into the low parts of life again. i feel so guilty for wanting a biological child over adoption, and i feel like i would never connect to an adopted child. i raised my younger sister and was constantly taking care of someones kid since ive been 6, being maternal is just in my nature. i guess it isn’t meant to be…..