Today is another bad day. I miss him. I think about him with other girls and I feel sick. I let my guard down too far, I trusted him way too much. I chose him to be my first and let him get close. All I have to show for it is sadness and longing. I won’t contact him again. He has my phone number if he wants to see me. I just need to delete his number but I can’t bring myself to yet.