My therapist told me to make a list of all the bad things and then a list of all the good things on the other side… Immediately I’ll have a list of all these good things that pales in comparison to the bad. That’s what makes this so hard I loved her so unconditionally. I don’t want to think bad things. It’s not in my nature to hate people anyway or hold grudges… I guess somehow can you love somebody enough to let them go knowing that’s what they want to be happy? I could never stay angry bird if I knew this person needed a kidney despite everything I would probably run and go get tested. I love them so much like they were my own family. I can Certainly have Hateful thoughts but I can’t hang onto them… Because I know that’s not how I feel. I want nothing more than to love and care for them or you just spoil them with love and attention and gifts. That’s just how I am most people I love when I love I love so hard. I don’t know I think the therapist is wrong somehow I have to let go with love but how ?