I considered self harm… frequently, and recently its become an overwhelming thought. I found out I was cheated on several times by a man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. it was a wasted three years. then two weeks later i find out that horrible period i had was a miscarriage. I live with my abusive family and with the virus I cant leave when I finally have the money to. today i tried SH for the first time no deeper than a cat scratch but about 12 times. I feel a bit better but I want more and I know i shouldn’t.