Every time I think, I always end up bringing myself into a horrible place in my mind that I can’t bear experiencing. It’s gotten where the only thing I can really do is turn off my thoughts, to just distract myself from thinking. But, every night without fail, when I’m left with just myself and my mind, I go to a dark place. It always ends up with me having a strong urge to end my life, and I feel like one day I’ll actually do it, because I do not see a future for myself.
