My life is changing so rapidly and it hurts so bad. My friend turned toxic and I’ve decided to cut things off, but doing so cost me my whole friend group. I also have a crush on this pretty girl I dated in middle school that barely lasted because her parents are assholes. Even though it didn’t work out I still think she’s the most beautiful woman I’ve seen and I love talking to her and I would kill for her to like me back. My chances with her are so low it’s sad but I just can’t get over the fact every time I see or talk to her I just fall. Every time I look at her I just think she’s the prettiest girl in the world and I have the whole cliche breath taken don’t know what to say problem. I would talk to her for hours if she let me. Every moment we hung out in the locker room or at school I’d feel like a love struck dork. I told my mom about my friendship issue but not the fact I’m still in love with my old middle school friend cuz I’m not out to her and she’s kill me. Can life just be simple for once?? I want to recover from losing my best friend without my brain subconsciously digging up my long buried crush from 7th grade. Do I really like girls? I haven’t fallen so hard for a girl and it’s terrifying. Why do I love the greatest people I know? Would I even have a chance with her if I tried? I cant tell if she’s just really nice or actually enjoys my company.
