I’m afraid that as a black girl I will never get a boyfriend or find love.

On top of being a first generation African in America, I’ve grown up in a very diverse setting. As such, I have taken on preferences and tastes that don’t fit into the stereotype of the “black” person. Deep down I know that I may never date/marry an African man as my parents assume I will. Even among the African-American boys I am exposed to, I don’t find myself attracted to them and they probably don’t see someone as dark as myself attractive anyways.

Personally, I’m attracted to the boys outside of my race; White, Asian, Hispanic etc. However it seems like none of those people would even consider a girl like me. All of my other friends (Indian, Black/White, White, Asian) have been in relationships and I’m the odd one out.

I know that I can’t change the way I look and I know I can’t change how people feel about me and my looks. It feels like I’m being rejected by all faces of the world. This truth always in the back of my head and I can’t get rid of it.

I’m just so afraid that because of who I am, I’m going to be alone.