I’m really afraid of men due to being repeatedly abused by two different men when I was like..five (I’m 25 now) It’s not like I think everyone is out to get me or anything, I just get super anxious 99% of the time when interacting with them and am generally so nervous I can hardly even get myself to talk.

I’ve never had a boyfriend or even kissed anyone before, and tbh there’s only a very small percentage of men I’m actually attracted to. But despite this I really want a bf and think that I’d be a really good and sweet gf if I could get comfortable around someone.

There’s been guys online that I talk to and really like, but whenever they want to meet I get too scared and can’t do it. I’m tired of this and wish I were just normal 🙁