Don’t do it, I’ve been in your position but I’ve also been in a position where I have lost someone due to suicide. I’ve been in a spot where life sucks so much that I got to the point of thinking well if I was gone technically the problem would be gone but I promise you that’s not the case. When my friend committed suicide it created more problems for everyone else it even tore some of my friends apart. Just know that you have a reason to live, there are people that care about you and they would be absolutely heart broken if you killed yourself. The more you cut the more risk you have of cutting open a vein, possibly deep enough to where you bleed out, I used to cut and I almost hit the vein in my wrist that if you cut you are most likely to die. I didn’t realize how much I had to live for until I came close to killing myself, I was lucky enough to have caught myself before I went to deep not everybody has that opportunity though, one wrong move and it could all be over.