Going through a divorce. I still love her, and she has custody of my kids. My kids aren’t the same, and I feel like they don’t want anything to do with me. I love them more than life. I have thought of suicide. They want to move to another state with their mom. My life is wrecked and devastated. I admit to 50% of fault in this marriage. I just want god to know I am sincere, and I want to reconcile. I don’t think anyone loves me anymore, and I’m ready to leave this life since there is no one to share it with. All the ones I love have left me, and chose their mother. I am so sad and cry every night. I am rotting on the inside, and out. I pray, and I don’t find answers, just pain. I have lost my faith.