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I fantasize about my own death at least 10x a day. I cant make it stop. Everything from hanging myself, to poisoning myself then slitting my wrist. I can picture my own blood filling a tub and I’m terrified.. but they just wont go away. I have a 5 month old baby and I cant raise him if I cant get these thoughts under control. I cant raise him if I’m dead. But how else am I suppose to stop them.. I’ve lived nearly 10 years like this.. i cant make it another year. With each year it gets worse and worse. More death. More pain. More heartache. I just cant take it anymore.
Theres an extension cord in my room and a beam out front I could hang myself from no problem. I know I could probably find some prescription drugs easy too. I don’t want to die, but all I think about is dying.. maybe I deserve it.

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I was 14 for my first television show and on the side stage before going on camera one day the producer’s son that was 8 years old came up to me dragged up a chair and started hugging me and kissing me for righteously and started massaging my d*** and continued until it ejaculated and then he put my hand on his d*** which was very hard and then moved my hand up and down and I gave him a throbbing o***** as well we continue that for the rest of our lives and moved to Italy when he was 14 and got married I’m 20 years later we would not have it any other way but the point of this message is he chose that at 8 years old and it’s not regretted a moment of it and neither have I when we spent the night together he enjoyed f****** me and became one of the smartest people in his class…… He would spend the night with me on a night before filming and then later I stayed in his suite at his home and he began f****** me at 9 years old and had the most beautiful sounds of ecstasy his mother would come in and say you boys don’t stay up too late now as his d*** was throbbing in me….. After we were together about 6 months he had two other brothers and he said could we help them have o***** so he let them f****** as they had no one to give them o*****…… They were so incredibly beautiful …. Robbie showed them how to f****** from the rear and how to lubricate the p**** and they watched until they completed o***** and then the next one took his turn while the other two stood by with hard dicks throbbing even though they had just completed f****** me they both kissed my heart throbbing d*** as they went back to their own rooms Robbie took care of my d*** after they left and drank everything and became a part of me later with his first e********** as he was f****** me I became a part of him through The years our passion and love for each other have never stopped that is why I cannot identify with the control people want to have over what boys do with their d*** and who they can give it to and what they can do with it it’s a part of who they are it helps them become who they are meant to be

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