Nothing bad physically happened to me in these first 2 days of this new decade, but I have been falling apart inside my head. I’ve been dealing with depression now for the past decade and it has been a series of ups and downs. The one time I had to feel mentally down is in the first few days of the decade. I wish I could tell anybody how I feel, but that would beg the question; “why? I thought you were getting better? Why would you lie?” Honestly, if you have what feels like a million eyes peering down at you, it feels painfully awkward to say “You know, I’m not feeling great anymore.” Which begs the question of how will others react to your unexpected response? My head just keeps spinning and I am deemed speechless most of the time. I feel like I should just shut up and be a good girl most of the time.
