It’s abundantly clear to me that two friends I’ve made don’t really give a rats a** about me or who I am. They always ignore me, never talk to me when I send messages to them. I had fallen in love with one of them. I thought, maybe they felt the same way. We talked a lot. But as time went on, I slowly came to the realization that whether I was around them or not, didn’t matter. They seemed to become aware of said feelings, and would joke about it. “Wow! Anon is stalking me – nothing new.” These types of jokes were a hit below the belt, and they knew what they were doing. Today I came to such a realization. We were talking – rather, I was standing there and listening to them talk. I was trying to add onto the conversation but they would just ignore me, not even batting an eye. I sat there. I thought, what do I do? I knew. I got up, and walked off to talk to some friends who care, and listen to what I have to say. They stared at me walking off for a minute, then went back to joking and laughing. They’re always making plans around me, it feels like they specifically do this just around me. If one of them were to text the GC they’d reply instantly. If I send a text they just don’t reply. I feel like I hold little to no effect on their lives. I don’t have the strength to put up with this anymore.