Life has been hard since my childhood from the day my dad left me to the point where i had to sacrifice my dream for my family. I somehow knew i was attracted to guy but i never admit it coz we Indian are homophobic and it’s not easy to just come out of the closet. I never had a love or crush till now.. it has been 1 year he is staying at hostel with two rooms after mine. Everyday i see him and it hurts and i know he has a girlfriend but there was a time where he really wanted to be close to me and i didn’t want that to happen or to know anything about me. But it’s becoming hard for me seeing me everyday and i try ignoring him every single moment. Even for him it must be strange that i start ignoring it’s affecting my study and my life. I was always introvert and i don’t have a frd coz i almost built this wall which so high for anyone to cross it