I was forced into applying for university by my youth workers, while I was horribly depressed and suicidal. Now I’m studying in a field which I don’t like, have no motivation for anything and have very low chance of ever getting accepted into a field that I might actually enjoy (in my country you’ll have a way higher chance of getting accepted into university/college if you’re a first timer). I tried to tell them I couldn’t do it right now, I had no motivation for anything and no want to even live. They told me I’d have to do it otherwise I would lose all my income for the next 3-4 months (not true). Now I’ve been in school for 4 months, have only been able to finish one course, and my income has dropped to only 250€ per month (that is finally getting better though). I feel like a total failure, and I’ve been neglecting all housework too. The worst thing for me is that I can’t fully blame the workers either because even though they pressured me and gave false information I still applied for the school myself. I just wish that I would have just been more determined to go by what I felt was right at that time