There is a friend of mine, we are BFF, we have known each other for almost 10 years. From 1st grade to now, she is in the same school with me, we are now in high school, and surprisingly…is in the same class with me, too. At first, I was kinda excited to meet her again, like…in secondary school we were not in the same class. So, she was also excited, we were having fun and happy times. But then time flies….I think that her personalilties have changed somehow, or maybe, it is her trueself. She doesnt care about my feelings anymore, I mean…whenever I show something that is really important and mean to me, she is always complaining about how bad it is, and telling me to quit it or to fix it in her way. Example: “Your hair…jeez, it looks worse than the one you had had.”…” No, You are wrong. I am right.”, “Dont raise your hand (when the lessson starts and I always want to raise my hand when the teacher asks questions.)”
She always lowers me, making me being a pessimist, she never supports me, in my memory up to now, Never. But if I argued back, she would glance at me and like upset.
Even, she doesnt care about me at all, she hangs out with the other new friend she made and treats me like I was a burden. I smile at her, she just keeps looking at her phone….I wait for her to say something to me. Not until the bell rings does she stand up and walk along with me to the class, but not say a word…
I think….maybe…she just cares about the 10 years friendship? The achievement she has made? A record?
Nevertheless, she shares her lovelife with me, but…maybe…she just wants to show off because Im single.
Some secrets she also shared when she was a secondary student…..
My evil self could harm her using her secrets, spread it to the entire school, humiliate her, anything, but I can not be a bad person, just because of her ignorant, just because of her behavior towards me.
I cant tell her that how I want to break the friendship…think pros and cons. She is in the same class, sitting next to me…you know what I mean.
I guess….I have to wait for the high school life ends then delete her from my life.
A negative spreading friend, a toxic friend I have made my entire school life, it affects my thoughts, being optimistic, being…happy, being success.
How I regret….to be friend with her.