Trigger warning: suicide and csa
I sometimes wish I had killed myself over a decade ago. I lied to protect the man who molested me twenty years ago and now it’s coming out whether I like it or not. I don’t want to be seen as a victim. I wish I’d never lied for him. I’m worried that when it comes out I’ll be called a liar and asked what was the point in talking now? I’m scared my family will take his side. I’ve never had a healthy relationship because of it, and am scared I never will. The thought of it coming out makes me feel like I’m drowning.