My depression and insecurities have gotten worse. Every day I wake up and lay in bed and I think about how I hate myself and my awful body and I think about how I’ll never compare to other women. There are so many beautiful women and I’m just not one of them and it’s hard to be out in the world trying to date or seem attractive when the most gorgeous Girl will walk beside you. What hurts most is knowing I can’t change it. Yeah there is plastic surgery but I’ve never wanted to change myself that way; at least until I started hating my nose which was recently because I realized just how bad it is. I go to sleep thinking about how I hate myself and I wake up thinking about how I hate myself.
