is being skinny really worth it. I hate this. I hate dieting and I hate the food im being forced to eat because of it. im on a keto diet and ive been eating so much coconut that the thought of it makes me sick. im sick of eating bacon and walnuts for lunch every day and having to choke down my own soggy and disgusting cooking. i wish i could enjoy a cup of delicious ramen and dominoes pizza but i probably wont EVER get to eat those foods after my diet has ended because ill just regain all the weight ive lost. my birthday is in a week and i want my mom to buy me a cake and my favorite sandwich from subway but i cant allow myself to eat it. i have no friends or any plans on my birthday and it saddens me that i wont even be able to eat my favorite food. i hate the fact that it takes weeks and weeks to lose weight yet you can gain back ten lbs in two days. i hate that ill have to keep eating so little even after my diet is up just to stay skinny. ive always fantasized about wearing the cloths that i want and having the freedom to express myself, but i dont think its worth it. its making me so frustrated i want to cry