I’m just so f****** tired of being a lonely loser while other people think I’m doing great and that I’m awesome. I’m just so f****** tired of not being loved and cared for.. it hurts thinking I might be unlovable. I don’t even know if it’s worth it anymore, I just want it all to stop. I want to fall in love but everytime I get close to someone I get ptsd from being raped so I just avoid all human contact and I’m so f****** lonenly.. I wish it could be over
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you’re not unlovable. iv’e recently come to figure that out.. i dont want to say it gets better because im still waiting for that to happen but things get easier sometimes.. just got to wait it out.. im sorry if this wasnt much of help..
Take your time getting to know someone before dating, ease yourself into a confortable position your ptsd does not bother you, and glance at their eyes every once in a while to make sure they are not pervs looking for a friend with benefits. If they don’t seem right, bail and try again with someone else until it works, but don’t give up on it.
I’ve been single for almost 10 years, so I kinda understand what you’re going through. I’ve never had any bad sexual experiences like that, worse I have is autism, I fear meeting new people, I don’t like leaving my apartment, I barely have any friends, and my emotions are mostly broken. I don’t let bad stuff bother me the best I can. Just got to keep going on. You can do it too, trust yourself.