I’m a registered s** offender and I just want to kill myself. I see no other way out of my misery. I thought I had found a woman who knew all about my mistakes and could still love me. Boy was I wrong. Last night we were having s** and I was starting to feel confident again until she whispered in my ear, “I could call the police and say you are r***** me right now and they’d believe me.” I pulled out and curled up into a ball, my whole body shaking in fear. Then she gets mad for me not finishing and she kicks me so hard in my testicles and a*** area. I never want to open up to any woman again.
Everyone abuses me. I have had my suv and home vandalized, someone poisoned to death my five month old Lab puppy, I always have things thrown at me and just about everyone treats me rudely. I’m not allowed to do my career, I can barely hold onto a job. I’m not allowed to do anything with my two kids(age 6 and 10). I can’t go to the father daughter dance, can’t teach my son baseball. My ex won’t even let me see them. I just hope they know how much I love them. And this life will follow me everywhere because I will always have to register. I’d be better off dead at 37.
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I have no words for what you are going through. Life dealt you a bad hand, but let it be known that someone will miss you if you end your life. Please stay strong. It will get better.
Then dont say anything to the women you meet from now on,just live your life be happy with these women and dont talk about your past. If possible move to a big city, leave this all behind. Get a new dog. Make a new family and be that perfectly correct guy to the point it’s annoying how you wont ever break any rule, even the dumb ones. I know this is hard but there’s nothing for you where you live right now, start over, you can do it.
Why did you repost this ?
I just wanted to get as much input as possible. I’m depressed and I don’t really have anyone to talk to. Believe me, I wish someone would just grab me in a hug and tell me everything will be okay.