I am not pretty- I’d say a little below average, and I’ve always known that. I have features unfixable by surgery. Guys (and girls) have straight up told me how ugly I am.
Went out on a double date with my first boyfriend, and my (attractive; nice body, petite, very pretty) friend wanted to tag along with hers. So naturally, as best friends, I said yes. I thought this guy wouldnt try and hit on her because we had been dating for a while already.
We get to the cafe with both of our dates in tow and my boyfriend just kind of stares at her while we’re talking. He just ends up hitting on her, which infuriated her boyfriend and they ended up leaving. I broke up with him and i have no remorse.
Ive always repeated to myself that looks dont matter to keep some level of self confidence, but i cant f****** do it anymore if people keep screwing me over. If i dont have that mantra anymore, i can only despise myself. Justanother low point in my low life.
