I’m so tired. I’m almost 30, dating someone I’m not 100% sure i love anymore, living in their parents home with them far away from my family. Their parents suggested I go back to college. It’s been ten years but i agreed because I’m a piece of s*** and i thought it’d make me less of a p************.
Now I’m just a p************ with more stress than before. My retail job is overnight, I don’t get any sleep. I was supposed to visit my family for the first time in almost a year and my job is making me work the days I requested off.
My SO is leaving with their family to another state for thanksgiving. I have to work so this will be my first major holiday completely alone.
I’ve never talked to a doctor about maybe having depression because I keep telling myself i’m over reacting and it’ll go away. but it never does. Still, what if I’m just faking?
I’m just so tired. I didn’t ask to be born and now I’m just waiting to be one of the billions of people history erased. It’s going to be a long miserable wait because i wouldn’t do anything to cause my family pain, but g******* im tired.
