There are 2 main lies i’ve told my S.O throughout our realtionship. They are bad. I have changed since then. But i still feel awful guilt about it. I cant tell. But the first one where i cheated is true. Only a dumb drunk kiss. i regret it. I blamed it on being drugged, did a test the next day, but the weird thing is that it actually tested positive for MDMA and some other ecstasy related ones.I do remember the things happening, i denied that of course. But its like i couldnt control myself. Like i was just watching while my sub-conscious was doing whatever it desired in that moment. I’ve caused a great deal of pain. I’ll never tell this again probably.And i hope no one finds this. I just want to scream my sins into the void. Im too much of a wimp to confess irl. Just the human condition or something i guess. We all lie, but if its never found out, did it even happen? I have to live with it, which is fine. I deserve the pain that comes from it. I just dont want people to be hurt. im just venting now. nothing makes sense
