I just ended an affair I started with a man 20 years older than me. I met him after my 5 year old died in her sleep 2-1/2 years ago. I was pregnant when she passed and met him a few months after she passed on. He was nice and listened to me. Didn’t force me into s** nothing. I gave birth 45 days after my daughter passed. It started casually just talking and getting to know each other. 6 months later we had the best s** I’ve had in a LONG time. For the first 1-1/2 I really felt like I would leave my husband after nearly 20 years of marriage and start a new life with this guy. I almost threw it all away for a man I barely knew. Although we talked all day, I did most of the talking. He would love bomb me when I wanted to end things. Give me money and brought me things when he thought I was dumping him. Still I realized I was just an option and not a priority in his life. Screw him. I’m saving my marriage. My husband has been to hell and back with me. And Yes he cheated and I forgave, but never forgot hence my little adventure with this side dude. I don’t regret the affair. It’s felt good and the revenge was sweet. I just got bored because I knew it would go no where. It was lust not love. No matter how many times he told me he loved me, it didn’t feel genuine. Please Lord keep me strong so I can get over him. He’s just not into me like I thought.
