After receiving my second COVID vaccine I had a 102.6 fever due to the caffeine in my system I couldn’t fall asleep and sleep off the fever. I have been smoking cigarettes for 9 months every day and would quit for a few days here and there. I steal them from people and have bought countless packs had a few then throw them away. during my fever I made a promise to god that i was wasn’t going to treat my body wrongly anymore and I would stop smoking cigarettes. Once I was feeling I quit for labout 2 days . I felt so guilty and so run down , what was the promise for? I don’t want to be a liar. a few weeks after I told my wife who smokes that we need to stop smoking. We made a promise to quit that day and I felt great. The next day we were both back it. it’s so f****** stupid and I feel so horribly having lied to god and to her (even though she didn’t keep up her end of the bargain) I can’t make it to confession at the moment and it is so much on my mind that I needed to share somewhere, thank you for taking the time to read if you do . god bless and please forgive me