• 3 years ago
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I am addicted to Ritalin.

Few people believe it ’cause I look healthy, young and cheerful (I am 30 and have been addicted for 5 years – ain’t got no wrinkles yet). Sometimes I take up to 22 tabs a day and nobody notices (I am small and thick-skinny). I can stay awake up to 3 to 5 days, go to work, go to class, have a date…nobody can see the pain through my eyes. I just want to stop. I have become a master at being gracious like a ballerina even though my body is aching like hell and my stomach is upset. I am able to hide all the knots in my troat and talk with a warm voice even though I can barely breathe.

The sickest thing of it all, is that people always complement my apperance on the third day of not sleeping. I remember on day when my mom came to visit me. I had been up for 4 days and was having auditive and visual hallucinations. She caressed my face and told me that I looked absolutely beautiful, even though I was f****** dead inside.

Why the f*** I am looking good when I am just a walking cocaine baggie?

Of course, I lie to cover my addiction. I have talked about it to many good friends, but they don’t know how far I can go. I can take lots, lots of amphetamine.

I wonder if somebody notices the cycle I am going through…

Anyone takes a lot of that s*** and still go through life like they are not a junkie?
How does it affect your body?

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