Every day I have to pretend I don’t have feelings for someone I care about. I force myself to limit contact with them and everything. Found out they may be moving to a whole other part of the world, and I am pretending that I want it to happen for them.
I don’t. Selfishly I hope they decide to stay here. It’s awful because it isn’t like we could ever date due to our circumstances, so I just want this to happen so I can still have them nearby. I feel like a shitty person.