I have no reason to be scared of people or have severe anxiety. But I am, and I do. I am terrified of talking and interacting with people and I physically cannot handle being around others for long periods of time. This has cost me countless friendships and even relationships. So for the past 2 years, I’ve lied to every single person I get close to about how I was violently raped by 3 of my cousins when I was 14. They have no reason not to believe me and I feel so terrible about it. I want to have an honest friendship with them, but I’m so scared that these people I rely on will disappear (with good purpose) from my life when they learn the truth.
